You can’t go home again…

June 17, 2010 at 3:17 pm (Uncategorized)

Today is a rough day. My mom and I both spoke with my grandma last night and she is starting to get very lonely. She keeps the TV in the den on all day just for background noise. She recently came across a show that she used to watch with my grandpa…she couldn’t take it and shut the tv off. She said she’d never watch that show again; she couldn’t.

I can’t stand the thought of my grandma, however strong she appears, feeling vulnerable, sad and lonely. I hate the fact that I am no longer just a 2 hour drive away. I booked a flight this morning to go spend 4th of July with her but after that, it’s going to be 5 months before I am able to see her again. The next two weeks, I fear will pass very slowly.

As I uploaded photos from my phone last night it suddenly donned on me that my life has been divided into two sections: when he was alive and after he died. The day he died, I had taken my kids at work to Six Flags. I pulled into the parking lot as he drew his last breath. The pictures on my phone tell a story of a life that had not yet been exposed to true pain and loss.  

This Sunday is my mom’s first Father’s Day that she is Fatherless. Next Friday is my 27th birthday and the first year that “Love you the most! -Grandpa” won’t appear on my birthday card. We will remember him this weekend with a BBQ and a memory stone being planted in our backyard.

I read a brilliant quote this week from Rose Kennedy. “It has been said, ‘time heals all wounds.’ I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, (protecting its sanity), covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But, it is never gone.” 

Very well said…


Here is the memory stone…planted in out backyard on Father’s Day.


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Memorable Memorial Day

June 1, 2010 at 4:13 pm (Daily Happenings) (, , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , )

My friend and I had a blast this weekend! For the first time since moving here in 2005, I was a tourist in my own city. We did everything! We went up to the observation deck of the Tower of Americas, a ghost hunt near the Alamo (it was good but the New Orleans tour was a tad better 🙂 lol), Six Flags Fiesta Texas, the Riverwalk boat tour, Rivercenter Mall, the Alamo, the Rainforest Cafe, drinkin’ with friends…the whole shebang!

The Emily Morgan Hotel

The two main historical points from the ghost tour were of course the two oldest hotels by the Alamo; The Emily Morgan Hotel and The Menger Hotel. A woman by the name of Sallie White haunts the Menger. She was a chambermaid there in in the 1870’s. She had a fight with her husband and he brutally attacked her while at the hotel. She died from her injuries two days later. Her ghost is seen quite often in the old Victorian part of the hotel (before additions were added in the early 1900’s). She is seen in a long gray skirt and bandana around her forehead carrying clean towels for guests.

The Menger Hotel

 The bar of the Menger is also where President Roosevelt gathered his “Rough Riders”. He found a bunch of guys in the bar of the hotel and offered to buy them some drinks. Once everyone was good and drunk, he slid a piece of paper in front and said “sign here”. The next day all these men woke up and found themselves on their way to boot camp. Nice right?

The Emily Morgan Hotel used to be the Nix Medical Arts Hospital and is where the wounded soldiers were kept during the Battle of the Alamo. The ghost of Emily Morgan (AKA Emily D. West) is seen in the lobby and halls of the hotel frequently. She was a melato girl in her twenties who basically served as a prostitute for the Mexican-American soldiers who fought at the Alamo.

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